even just going out to the store makes me feel dirty and i’d rather just stay home
I’ve forgotten how to do “cashier small talk.” It’s either total silence or I make a fool of myself.
I do a lot of online order and pickup though if that’s an option for you (most stores are free with a min order around $30-35 if you are picking up).
I've already told my boss I'm quitting when I have to come back to the office.
Working from home has been amazing. I like spending all day with my cat.
why dont you ask him to keep working at home?
Your last line reminds me of one of my favourite scenes in the IT Crowd:
Roy: Yeah, I don't like people.
Jen: Oh well that's not fair Roy, have you met all of them?
Roy: I've met enough of them. People...what a bunch of bastards.
people, ugh. can we just try turning them off and NOT on again?!? hahaha
I thought I was doing okay until I interacted with people who aren’t my partner for the first time in a while. Oof. I think I’ve completely forgotten a lot of shallow compensation skills, and my deep compensation is pretty rocky :/ A lot of the “masks” I used to use feel like they’ve “expired” which I know sounds kinda weird but idk how else to put it.
Even though I’m an introvert I really like people, but I feel like I’m “way too much” now :C And since that means spending a lot more mental energy to socialize, it’s really hard to think about going “back to normal” right now....
When my university sent out an email saying that they're going to make classes in perosn for the fall semester, they made it sound like it was a *good* thing. When I read it, I have never wanted to die more than in that moment.
Some schools offer *some* classes online. Worth checking which if any are offered at your school.
I’m an autistic extrovert. So basically I need to be around people to feel okay but I’ve spent so much time without people that I don’t remember how to handle all the shit people do and I sit on the brink of sensory overload everytime I’m around them.
I'm the opposite. I NEED social interaction or I'll go crazy. But Idk how to socialize properly lol. Though gotten waaayyy better recently
What did you do to get better?
Just saw my extended family again after a year. First day went ok. Day 3 now and I’m considering hiding in the cupboard because I’m so burned out. 16 hours a day with them is too much.
Your family is NT? That's tough.
I won't say I \*hate\* people but I resent them for being the reason I am always tired when I leave the house, and I resent how I am expected to be the one to conform to their ways (which is exhausting). It's easier to just avoid people. Thankfully, I have the opportunity to work from home and don't have to leave to make money.
Last week, I went to a volleyball match for the first time since quarantine. For reference, up until last year, I had gone to every single match with my family for 5 straight seasons, most matches were near full capacity, with some having to open up seating not normally available because the number of tickets technically exceeded capacity for the stadium during important matches. Despite the amount of people in the stadium being severely curtailed due to the current pandemic, as soon as people started cheering, being inside the stadium was physically painful and I had to put earbuds in just to cope. While that did stop the physical pain, the sounds were still enough to make focussing on the match difficult and to induce quite the headache.
If my ability to handle social stimuli has deteriorated this badly over the last year of lockdown, I genuinely fear having to go to all of my university classes in-person this fall when classes are planned to be on-campus again.
I intended this post to be nowhere near this long, but I'm leaving it anyway. And no, Grammarly, my tone for this post is certainly not friendly, joyful, or optimistic.
RETURN TO MONKE!
Yeah, not looking forward to social expectations
I can highly recommend r/kikpals for finding friends. I've gotten a solid friendship group from all over the world thanks to that.
I'm losing the ability to make eye contact. I had to work pretty hard to be able to do that in the first place.
Then dont stop it
I've been self isolating for years, this pandemic ain't shit
I just got a new apartment and will be able to live on my own again for the first time in 4 years. I'm so ready to just be alone again and have peace and quiet, and not have to socialize with anyone outside of work.
I'm still waiting for my spaceship to come and pick me. I'm tired of this planet. I wanna go home.
Don’t forget to stop by and pick me up on the way.
God yes! Even my introvert friends are like, LICK ME, and I’m just here like, okay you, you and you can hug me but the rest need to stay 2 meters away from me forever. I’m thriving in lockdown lol
2 meters is 2.19 yards
This is what I thought when I was alone for so long (because by social anxiety felt considerably higher when I imagined going out again) but I actually went out for 2 days this week and spent time with a group of people and I was totally ok. I even enjoyed it more than usual and felt the endorphins rushing to my brain lol I think a lot of people will be surprised.
I’m probably gonna keep wearing a mask when this is over, not having to think about my lower face movements have been a blessing
I don't know what I might have been doing, or not doing, with my face before mask time. With a mask I'm better understood. People get that I'm being friendly in way they never did before. Strangers respond so much better to me while I'm masked. I'm not looking forward to the disconnect and misunderstandings that come with my naked face.
Yeaa I feel like i forgot how to socialise with anyone that isn't my family. But i think after some time of being in college in-person, i'll get used to socialising again.
For now, don't expect me to chit chat with people irl
My cat is trying to sleep on my lap, and doesn't appreciate me laughing hard.
Fuck em. Human beings are vile, greedy, murderous, narcissistic creatures. I’m glad I’m not one of them.
You had me until the last sentence; what are you, a cat or something?
I had to call a coworker on the phone the other day instead of Slack because of a pressing matter. I couldn't form words that made sense At. All. But I've also been struggling to type words too.
I'm very burnt out by just about everything right now. But working from home has helped alleviate a lot of the stresses and masking I typically have to manage when working in person.
I don't look forward to the return to normal even though all of my peers can't wait and are already planning "fully vaccinated" parties. On the one hand I do look forward to meeting some of my new pandemic friends, but even thinking about the energy that requires drains me.
Honestly I'm the exact opposite, I am very happy that life is getting back to normal and I'm excited to eventually attend anime conventions and other in person events with people who have shared interests. The change in routine caused by the pandemic was horrible for me and I still haven't gotten over it after a year
Cons will be nice. I've appreciated the time off, but I did miss the cons, sewing classes, etc.
Your situation is one I've been somewhat afraid of so I've made specific efforts to hang out with my friends over these times, mostly online. It's been fun anyway.
You know, with the amount of effort I put into that I don't think I could call myself an introvert, which is just great considering... You know. Autism makes that socializing kinda hard.
Humans suck and not in a good way.
Hahahaha laughed way too hard at this tweet cause it's literally me.
They talk about opening back in may in my country. I'd rather not think about it, burry in denial and pretend May is never gonna happen.
Oh god this made me laugh so hard that there are tears in my eyes
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